Wow it has been a little while, hasn't it?! I missed you!
Life is crazy amazing and fast, so very fast. I love it. Right, straight in like the new kid in school who wears brightly colored Hawaiian shirts and has braces (he's honestly the coolest anyway)
I was speaking to my therapist recently,(everyone should have one as lovely as mine!) and she said "Ah, so you are a risk taker!", I stopped short... "Am I?" I thought to myself. "Yeah... YEAH! I suppose I am!" I was really happy to discover that.
For those of you that know me and my life story so far you might think to yourself "Um, yeah, you moved countries, honey." and I agree, that was the biggest risk that I've taken to date and it turned out great! I'm very fortunate that this was my experience, it could have turned out very differently.
I guess I'd only thought of risk takers as the people who do dare-devil stunts on motorbikes, sky dive, casually toss around massive amounts of money in poker games, leave town with no where to go and don't tell anyone where they are going. I've never been those things! I am kind of a wimp when it comes to adrenaline activities, even my Grandmother bested me there when she went skydiving for her 86th birthday! Shes a legend. I've always worried about how my actions might affect other people, I guess that come from being the oldest and "Moms little helper" in a family with 5 kids.
But I AM a risk taker, small ones generally, but I do take them!
Big risks I have taken: I moved countries, I left my job this year with no plans, I moved to a massive city, I then moved to a tiny village, I buy plane tickets like its a £12 t-shirt and a medium will probably... maybe fit. We'll see when it arrives. I've always been the type of girl to fall in love hard and fast because its fun, I trust my intuition, and I'm not afraid of being hurt
Little risks I take every day: I start making lunch by going through the fridge and thinking to myself "this might taste good together" then I make it and eat it regardless. (Lucky for me I am not a picky eater) I do craft projects with no idea if I've got enough material, I don't use patterns for 90% of the stuff I make and the stuff I do use patterns for I make the patterns myself. I leave plants growing in my garden that might be weeds because I like the way the leaves look and they might grow me food.
The point to all this is: I don't expect things to turn out a certain way. I rely on my instincts, I briefly consider the consequences and how that might affect me and my friends/family, I trust God to guide me because I'm constantly asking Him to do so. Every risk I take is more about the journey than the destination. I want to be on that journey! If something goes wrong and I run out of material I'll just problem solve and create something more unique than I'd imagined. If I don't like the lunch I made then I'll learn for next time but to get through this plate of tuna/pickle/cheese/toast I'll just switch on Netflix and chomp away. (Actually that sounds good... I know what I'm having for lunch!). I fail, I really do and sometimes spectacularly... but so what?
I trust myself. I trust my judgement. I trust God. I am not afraid of failure. But honestly it has taken me a long time to get that way.
My questions for you are:
1. What do you expect to happen. What if it didn't? Would it be the end of the world? Work on your expectations.
2. Are you excited about your journey? Not simply satisfied... EXCITED!!!
3. How can you take just a tiny risk today? Order something from your favorite coffee place that you've never had before. If you don't like it.... you know now... but what if it became you're new favorite thing!? Yay for Cardamom lattes with Coconut Milk!!!
I love you, you got this.